Outsiders (2024)
Outsiders (2024)
All lyrics © Tim Scott McConnell 2024.
Dead Is Dead
I don’t believe in heaven
Although I’ve been through hell
I know there’s no forever
Like I said, dead is dead
I raise my head each morning
Surprised that I’m still here
Death strikes sometimes without warning
Like I said, dead is dead
And so I do my damnedest
To live without regret
Cause once this ride is over
Like I said, dead is dead
Destiny
I had a job but I fought with the boss
Called him a bastard and got laid off
So what,I’ve had enough
Had to make out of my one room squat
Now the back of my car is all that I got
Well hell, I don’t need a lot
Right down the street is a house that stands
With a woman inside sitting with her man
But he, he isn’t me
I know it’s foolish to dream
Now that I’ve lost everything
Still I intend so succeed
I just can’t help but believe
In destiny
We had a kid but the kid doesn’t know
If you see us both together it clearly shows
He’s mine, he’s got my eyes
Me and his mother we never really talk
When she sees me coming she turns
and walks away, as if in shame
I’ve written her letters where I try to explain
That it’s gonna get better and my luck
Will change one day, that’s what I say
I know it’s foolish to dream
Now that I’ve lost everything
Still I intend so succeed
I just can’t help but believe
In destiny
In destiny
Here In My Head
Every time I raise my head
I try to see the best
And understand the rest
But then I turn and look around
And see another soul
Just going down
There’s a place that I remember
Was it only in my head
There’s a place where I surrendered
And I danced amongst the dead
Here in my head
God and con men count on faith
It’s you that gives to them
They never take
Every prophet has a dream
And right behind the dream
There lies a twisted scheme
There’s a place that I remember
Was it only in my head
There’s a place where I surrendered
And I danced amongst the dead
Here in my head
If I had to lay a bet
On how it’s going to end
The day there’s no one left
I would say it all depends
On whether I’m inclined
To put my trust in man
There’s a place that I remember
Was it only in my head
There’s a place where I surrendered
And I danced amongst the dead
Here in my head
I Do Believe
Don’t try to save this sinner
I beg you let me be
I do not need salvation
I’ll never rest in peace
I’m bound for purgatory
Where I can wander free
And never have to worry
With the better side of me
In hell, I do believe
In some ways I’m a pilgrim
Looking for the truth
The truth that isn’t written
The one inside of you
A story never ending
Forever to repeat
In which you seek an answer
Awake and in your sleep
In hell, I do believe
It doesn’t take much effort
To slip and fall from grace
You shake hands with the devil
You’ll find there’s no escape
So if this fate befalls you
Just bow on bended knees
Cut your heart wide open
And shout out as you bleed
In hell I do believe, I do believe
Old Brown Bar
Skinny Jane is getting high again, wearing shades inside
Trying hard to smoke a cigarette without a light
I remember when she stood as proud as any queen
Back before she sold her crown for methamphetamine
See the dude on the corner stool with the tattooed face
Every black tear a tragedy he can’t erase
Once upon a time he made his mother proud
Then he went and did most everything that’s not allowed
Here I sit among these fallen stars
Who burned so bright that they just fell apart
And nothing here is going to fix their broken hearts
Willy Wise is drinking Baby Chams, looking cool and mean
You want to buy a gun or fence some goods, then he’s the man to see
Ever since he broke parole he keeps his profile low
What he does when he leaves here, nobody needs to know
Here I sit among these fallen stars
Who burned so bright that they just fell apart
And nothing here is going to fix their broken hearts
In this old brown bar
Me, I come here cause it’s close to home and they all know my name
No one judges me for what I did to fall from grace
It’s a place where I can go and I don’t have to hide
All the reasons that the fire inside me died
Here I sit among these fallen stars
Who burned so bright that they just fell apart
Who paid the price because they went so far
That they’ve forgotten who they are
But, nothing here is going to fix their broken hearts
In this old brown bar
The Better Side Of Me
Here I’m sitting on a Friday night
Just pretending everything’s alright
I’m not thinking bout the trouble I’m in
What I did tonight and where I been
I’m keeping quiet cause I don’t have much to say
All I want to do is make it all go away
I had a vision of what could be
But it was only a foolish dream
Cause in my present reality
There is no reason to keep believing
In the better side of me
They told me all I had to do was drive
And wait outside until they pulled their heist
But some night watchman took his pistol out
And when the smoke cleared there were three men down
The guard came running out and started shooting at my car
I put the pedal down and took off laying tar
I had a vision of what could be
But it was only a foolish dream
Cause in my present reality
There is no reason to keep believing
In the better side of me
As I was driving off I realized
A patch of red was spreading on my side
I felt some burning but it wasn’t bad
I tried to stop the bleeding with my hand
This is not the way the story’s supposed to end
This is where I truly thought for sure I’d win
I had a vision of what could be
But it was only a foolish dream
Cause in my present reality
There is no reason to keep believing
In the better side of me
The Outsider
I’m not the kind of guy who needs to take a lot of space
I’d rather find a corner somewhere dark out of the way
See I, I’m a gentle man. Yeah I, I’m a gentle man
That’s just the way I am
I’ve no desire for attention, that’s just not my thing
I much prefer it in the background where I go unseen
Cause I, I’m a gentle man. Yeah I, I’m a gentle man
I’m the outsider
That’s just the way I ride
A lot of people need to call attention to themselves
For me a life like that would be a total living hell
See I , I’m a gentle man. Yeah I, I’m a gentle man
I’m the outsider
That’s just the way I ride
I’m the outsider
Thunder And Rain
Dear mother forgive me for all that I’ve done
I know you’re ashamed of the son I’ve become
But when I look back on the way I was raised
Whatever I am you’re at least half to blame
I got scars on my scars, I’ve got hate in my veins
And nothing inside me but thunder and rain
I set out at sixteen without a goodbye
Ignoring the cold and the tears in my eyes
I stopped in the churchyard and spat on a grave
The grave of the bastard who gave me my name
I got scars on my scars, I’ve got hate in my veins
And nothing inside me but thunder and rain
By this time tomorrow I’ll no longer be
Just one small injection and I’ll cease to be
The judge found me guilty, no chance of reprieve
Hell, that’s what you get when you’re brought up like me
I got scars on my scars, I’ve got hate in my veins
And nothing inside me but thunder and rain
Turn Me Into You
You say you’re going to find the best in me
You’ll be looking for eternity
You wanna get inside and fix what’s wrong
You wanna know how many times I’ve heard that song
I didn’t tell you cause I thought by now you surely knew
There’s nothing you can say and nothing you can ever do
To turn me into you
I bet it probably keeps you up at night
Wondering why I just don’t tow your line
Well maybe I have somewhere else to be
Or just in need of better company
I didn’t tell you cause I thought by now you surely knew
There’s nothing you can say and nothing you can ever do
To turn me into you
What can I say to make you understand
I’m not your boy, your lover or your man
So please forgive me if I say farewell
At least it’s better than just go to hell
I didn’t tell you cause I thought by now you surely knew
There’s nothing you can say and nothing you can ever do
To turn me into you